If you follow me on twitter, you may have seen me tweet saying
” Would you believe that when I was younger, I was ashamed to be Asian? “
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Some of you may be shocked by this considering how much of my Asian culture I embrace now (well at least more than I did before) but it is the truth. When I was younger (anything prior to the age of 13) I despised that I was born Asian. I would look at my Australian friends and be envious of their heritage. I always felt different and left out.
All my best friends in primary school were white Australians or halfcast.
They were the ‘popular, athletic‘ kids, and I was the short, tiny, Asian kid who would at best come 4th in hurdles. If you look back at photos of when I was in primary school, you would see that my skin was much tanner considering I used to play footy and all those kind of sports back then. It’s funny how I just didn’t like who I was. I hated the fact that I was short. I hated that my hair was black. And I was just filled with a lot of self hatred back then. It went went up to the point where I told myself “I would never marry an Asian guy” just because I didn’t want to have anything to do with them.
Well, obviously as you can see, after high school it all changed!
Even though for about the first half of Year 7, I was still feeling slightly that way – I became friends with more Asians and I found out how much I loved being who I was! And after briefly dating a white guy, I realised that I didn’t even click with their customs/culture as much. And I guess that was the start of my own pathway to accepting and loving who I am!
So the point I’m trying to say is, be proud of who you are!
We’re all unique and we shouldn’t be ashamed to be the person we are! No matter what race, shape or colour we are :)
God doesn’t make any mistakes!
Note: Title is in reference to Mike/Tina from Glee 2×18